Birthday Countdown Day 2!!!!

Tuesday April 30th!

Today, I slept. So boring haha. I also finished packing and cleaning the other apartment. Then I watched CTFxC until NCIS came on! OMG! NCIS was amazing tonight! Ziva kicked butt (literally). McGee and Gibbs used some pretty big guns to shoot down somebody. Oh and of course there was some TIVA talk! Then I watched the funniest show on Tuesday nights! NEW GIRL! Lets just saw some stories were told and I laughed a lot! Then I watched Awkward. Team Matty all the way! The episode was great and funny! Loved it! Then I went back to watching some CTFxC :)

See Y'all tomorrow!

Night!

BIRTHDAY COUNTDOWN DAY 1!!!!

Monday, April 29th!

Today was a snooze! I had a 7:30am final for my corrections class. Then I came home and watched my newest addiction...

CTFxC!

If you don't know what CTFxC is, it is a youtube show/blog from Charles and Alli Trippy (and Zoey and Marley)! For the past almost 5 years, they have video taped their day. And they haven't missed a day yet! Check out their site at http://www.youtube.com/user/CTFxC

Charles Trippy, for those ho don't know, is part of the hot rock band We The Kings! I get to see them play live this Saturday on my 21st birthday!

After watching the videos, I tool a nap. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Then I had to drive across town to help clean up some at the old apartment. Boring!

Then I came home and watched even more CTFxC! This show is ADDICTING!

Maybe tomorrow will be more exciting. But I doubt it. Have a great night!


P.S. want a shout out in tomorrow's blog? comment on this with a joke! (for those who are on my twitter or facebook, reply or comment on the link please)

Waddup Waddup??

Long Time No Blog!

Time to update y'all!

And there will be pics!

So last year for Halloween I dressed as a Greek goddess. I made a toga too! It was fun! Except no one came to our apartment and I was the only one trick or treating in my complex (I got all the free candy!) so that was cool. I'm thinking about going as a hard core rock n roller this year!

Early November (November 11th to be exact), I saw All Time Low with my best friend! I shook Jack's hand, and i was flipping out! It was such a fun concert! The guy's are so cool! oh and Spoooooooon! Alex thought that, that was a funny word! haha! Since then, I'm even more obsessed with them and I fell in love with a new band...

(new band will be explained later)

Then later that week my best friend came up from Central Florida to Tallahassee aka Tally (I go to FSU! Go Noles!). We went to museums, the capitol building, we saw Breaking Dawn part 2 at midnight! and we did a whole bunch of other fun things! she's coming back again this November for the Homecoming game!

Then comes December! We bought a fire pit and sat around the fire a few times and made smores, of course! I also went to Sea World with my friends! Pretty much how i spent my December LOL.

January! New Year! New Semester! January was pretty boring haha just went to Sea World and kayaking. Febuary came free pancakes and a balloon animal! I spent Valentine's Day with a friend at the mall and watching Safe Haven. We both loved the movie and had a great girl's night out. Oh and there was the Psych Slumber Party! I won a free Snuggie! And stayed up all night! March....

Spring Break! I spent it in Tampa, Fl with my two best friends: Laura and Jennyli! We went to the outlet malls in Orlando first, then hit the road! We went to Busch Gardens and rode the roller coasters and saw the animals! It was so much fun! The next day we went to Clearwater Beach and went on a dolphin tour! We were on a boat! It was so much fun! Then we hit the shops! After a day at the beach we went to the Hard Rock Cafe! Great food and great music! The last day we went to the Florida Aquarium and saw fishes and sharks! oh and PENGUINS!


















March isn't over yet! My best friend, Laura (who also saw All Time Low with me) and I saw The Summer Set. The Summer Set was on tour with All Time Low and we fell in love with them. So what did we do? We got tickets to the concert as well as meet and greet! We had no clue what to say to them. But we took pics with them. At the moment, I'm listening to their new album, Legendary! You should check them out!

April! I went to the beach with some friends. Got totally burnt. That was April 7th and it's now April 29th and I just finished peeling. It was crazy.

April 12th! "It feel like a perfect night..." For a Taylor Swift Concert! My friend Lydia and I saw Taylor Swift! She's amazing! She also seemed so so so so sweet! It would have been cool to meet her! She's someone to idolize! It was so much fun!

Oh and then I moved into I new place! I love it! New Place, New Year, New Same Old Me!

Now that you are caught up, I have some News!

I turn 21 on Saturday! so each day, I will blog what happened that day until then!

Israel!

My trip to Israel was life changing. Seeing the western wall, twice, made me feel spiritual and even more Jewish than I already am. Being in historical places like Haifa or Masada made me realize what had happened in the past and the struggles Jews had to make. Waking up early and climbing up Masada to see the sunrise was one of my favorite moments (even if I felt faint on the way up and fell down 3 steps on the way down) because I got to see the sunrise from a historical site. When I went to the Holocaust museum, I was holding back tears when looking at pictures and reading stories. The museum told me even more stories about the Holocaust than I already knew. Riding the camel was also a pretty neat experience too; I’m so glad it didn’t spit on me! Another cool thing I did was I floated in the Dead Sea and took a Dead Sea Mud bath. One night we slept in a Bedouin tent. The tent was so hot I slept outside under the stars with a few other people. I even tried some great food like real falafel and Shwarma. I also did some mitzvahs while there. I worked on a farm and picked onions, and I helped trim some trees for JNF. I also got to help out at an excavation in a cave where I learned that a group of Jews hid in there from the Romans. At the end of the trip, I left Israel with 47 new members of my Mishpucha, which means family. I can’t wait to go back to Israel again someday!

How I Ended Up Married To Batman

K: can't wait to tell the world :)

H: wait...what????

G: Then tell us. Lol

K: ok. I'm secretly a cat. surprise! ahah

H: I knew it! I had my suspensions all along!

G: We already thought that lol

K: well darn :p well did you know I'm a super ninja cat dedicated to fighting cat crime across the country?! no, bet you didn't...

H: yes we did. sorry Katy

K: ok...I'll go cry in my corner now...lol

G: Your prolly the hand prints that appeared on my windshield one night while running around fighting cats lol

K: yep. you caught me haha

G: Haha, and what cat super hero/ninja has a crying corner? Lol

H: Batman does. i met him when i went undercover has Catwoman.

K: this one. it just gets to be too much sometimes! lol

G: If Haley is cat woman, what's your hero name Katy? Lol

H: i was only undercover as Catwoman. I'm really Superwoman.

H: I have the batmobile btw if anyone wants to go for a joy ride

K: super katy kat

G: Lmao, and that's why you have a crying corner. :p jk.

K: hahahah maybe so maybe so...

G: And who wouldn't want to ride in the bat mobile. Batman might be kinda pissed though sense you took away his main mode of transportation lol

K: he has the bat cycle which i think is pretty shweet also

H: true.

H: Katy i'll be in your area in .56 seconds

G: It's part of the bat mobile though. So Haley is just screwing batman over, but that is usually what cat woman does though

H: i really shouldn't be "texting" and driving the bat mobile. i might cra

K: poor, sexy batman. guess hell just have to stay at my house ;) ahahah

G: How did batman get to your house?!

G: And tell him to work on that voice lol

K: he's batman he can do anything. that's how! haha don't kill my dream! lmao

H: crap! he spotted me. i'm on the run. Katy, i'll be there soon

G: I'm pretty sure cats and bats don't get along very well. And Haley sounds like she might run him over while she's texting lol

K: noooo D: not sexy batman! Haley don't run him over!

H: i almost did hit him. now he's on the roof. i have to swerve hold on

G: Haha. Haley, that wasn't a speed bump you just rolled over!

K: nooooo D: I'll be in my crying corner

H: I got away. but he just called the car and i told him that i can be his personal driver and then he said he'll think about it

G: Haha, I guess you'll just have to settle for robin the boy wonder lol

K: well since robin is Joseph Gordon Levitt I think I'll be ok :)

G: No worries, he's rich too

H: I stopped the car and he got in and told me i can be his driver if i give up being Catwoman. what do i do?

G: So you're just going to start stalk piling men in your house? Lol

G: You ask him for a ring, duh lol

H: ok done!

K: is that a problem?! lmao

G: After a few guys it might start being looked at the wrong way lol

G: And Haley just stole batman from you Katy lol

K: hmmm good point. going to have to find more houses and maybe pay off some officials lol

K: and noooo :( Haley how could you?!

G: Haha, and where is all your money coming from? Lol

K: going to have to rob banks for this one....lol or just marry robin divorce and take half his money

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G: Robin only gets rich is batman is dead, remember he is just a child delinquent saved by batman

G: ‎*if

H: sorry. It was the only way.

K: ugh why do you always have to kill my dreams somehow?! lol

H: I asked him if he had any super rich, single, superhero friends

G: And just solving cat crime prolly doesn't pay to much, maybe you can't trade some meow mix for money lol

G: ‎*can

K: I can appear on commercials to endorse cat products. boom! solution

G: Because maybe I work for the dark side :p lol

H: are you Darth Vader?

K: are you my father?!

G: Yes that awkward moment when a girl in a unitard dressed like a cat starts eating cat food. Lol

G: Not that I know of. If I am I owe a lot in child support lol

K: that could fund my man fund hahah

H: but are you Darth Vader?

G: If I'm your father I'm not letting you spend it on a man fund lol, and I can't give up my secret identity lol

H: dang! haha we gave up ours

G: And now I can defeat you haha!

K: you can't tell me what to do! you weren't there! you abandoned me! ahah

G: You can clearly tell from my picture I am the abominable snowman!

H: Cool! (no pun intended) I met Big Foot once

G: I still wouldn't whore out my daughter, already low on the father of the year list, I think that would hit rock bottom lol

G: That's my cousin lol, he's even taller than me!

H: I tried to hook up with me. so not my type. i like Bats and Cats

H:‎*he. sorry driving the batmobile still over here

G: So you like smaller? Eh lmao

G:‎* smaller eh?

K: I like tall guys ;) ahahah

G: The bat mobile is fast, how have you still not gotten to where you are going? Lol

H: idk where I'm going. the gps is broken right now and Batman keeps yelling at me

K: hahah marriedlife

G: You best not be talking about incest haha.

H: Katy, are you saying: Big Foot > Robin

H: wait! when did i get married?

K: if robin is tall then no lol

G:You married batman like 20minutes ago

G: And robin is super short

H: i thought i just got engaged not married

K: nooooo :(

K: stop crushing my dreams, dad! you're ruining my life!!!

G: Close enough, and sorry Katy, you knew the truth was coming

H: that's what father's do ruin your life

H: guess where we just ended up?

G: Lmao

K: Mexico?

H: ‎Katy! quick go outside! we're going to pick you and Robin up before heading to the next place

H: no back in tally

K: yay! I'll head downstairs! ahah

G: That gps would really have sucked if she ended up in Mexico lol

H: the gps is broken! it tells me i'm going in circles and that i'm flying

G: Well which bat mobile are you in, cause it could be right, you could just really suck at driving lol

K: can fly up to my window so I don't have to walk downstairs? lol jk

G: Katy = laziest super hero/ninja ever

H: yup! look outside. Batty (my nickname for him) told me it does fly and i've been hovering the whole time

G: And there's your problem lol, just don't hit Katy as she jumps from her window, who know how many lives she has left lol

H: she made it in safely. we're now on our way to pick up Robin

K: ‎2 lol I'll take the stairs..lol

H: but you're already in the. crap! your clone is in the car

G: I think Katy wants Bigfoot over robin lol

H: yup. but i need her at the next place we're going as well as Robin lol

K: so difficult. Bigfoot is tall but robin is Joseph Gordon Levitt ergggg decisions decisions. I choose James Franco instead ;)

G: Haha, but he goes everywhere in a speedo

H: ‎Katy i don't see you...

K: that's just fine ;) ahahah

G: Haha plus is he even 18?

H: yeah he is

H: so Robin is busy so we invited James Franco instead

K: James Franco is like 30 something I think

H: Katy! there's James! oops i flew over him. hold on while i turn around

G: Haha, so you like those older guys? Lol

H: well, we are almost to our destination and Batty says, "are you sure we should do this?" meanwhile: James and Katy are swapping spit in the back seat

K: maybeeeee lol

G: Dang Katy, doesn't take you long lol

H: we're in Vegas!!!! at the Elvis Chapel!

G: Good thing robins always covered in latex! Haha

H: well this went from PG to X rated really fast

G: This also went wrong a lot of other places lol

K: I'm with James now!

H: Just said my I Do's! I'm married to Batman bitchezzzzzzz

G: Close enough lol

H: i wonder if i could change my facebook status now...

G: Hopefully you don't want kids, he has the same problem as robin lol

H: But when he's not Batman he's not

G: Maybe he's a never nude like Tobias in arrested development lol

H: he doesn't shower with clothes on. i know this personally

K: funny show

G: Didn't take you long either lol, you ladies need to slow down and enjoy the ride a little first lol

G: And yes one of the best shows ever

Haley Scherr how would you know?

G: How would I know what?

H: oh nevermind i thought you wrote best SHOWER ever

H: i'm flying to Europe right now for our Honeymoon

G: Haha, no, I'm not a creeper.

H: I didn't think you were

G: So does the bat mobile have a shower? And did poor Katy have to watch cause it seems like you have been in there all night lol

K: ahahah dyingggg

H: yes and a bedroom. but the bedroom is occupied by James and Katy

G: Yea, this has been one very long conversation. And my phone is dead because of it lol

H: yeah it has but it made my night

G: Tell Katy to get out of there, she has only known the guy like ten minutes lol

K: hahah my phone was fully charged at the beginning of all this. now it's at like 45% darn it you guys hahah

H: we just landed at Katy and James' Hotel. and now Batty and i are on our way to our apparently Summer house

H: my phone is plugged in and i'm on my computer

G: Haha, this has only killed 20% on my iPad, but my phone is taking a huge hit from all the texting

H: haha well there's over 100 posts

G: So much for not going for it all on the first date, if you can even call a car ride to a hotel a date lol

H: it's ok. I hit my guy before marrying him

G: That could be takin different ways lol

H: i ran him over before marrying him

H: with his car...

G: If that were a true story you would a horrible person lmao

G: ‎^be

H: omg! i would be crying and saying sorry over and over if that ever happened

G: Hopefully you don't have bad karma, cause the next guy you hit could be him lol

H: but then i'd marry him so it could be a good thing?

Haley Scherr and i've never hit anyone before.

G: Depends on how badly you hurt him lol

H: i would barely hit him so he wouldn't get anything but a few scratches

G: Yea good luck planning that one out, see a guy on the sidewalk, and drive up on the side walk so you can hit him softly

H: ok deal!

H: you know last semester a guy was walking down the isle to park and i almost hit him but he moved in time

H: *aisle

G: Must have been flash, he's a hard one to hit lol

H: i thought it was him but he went by too fast to tell

K: promise me I win be in the car when you attempt this...

H: win?

K: won't*

H: would you be in the car behind me?

H: Batty wants to go to sleep. so i guess this is where i get off

G: Katy will be in the hotel gettin down with the justice league lol

H: LMFAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Invincible Couple! {STORY}

It all started out when my boyfriend, a few of our best friends and I went to this old refurbished camp house this one summer. My boyfriend, Josh, and I went into theback bedroom and were making out, all of a sudden the dresserjust started to move, it was shaking and it was moving closer to Josh and me. We started to panic, but the hero Josh was, he said, "Don’t worry babe we can move this nothing can harm us, nothing, just help me push it away." After great warmth of comfort went through me, I helped him push the dresser away. Since that freaked us out we ran out of the creepest house we've EVER been in. We ran until we found the safest thing, an old school. Little did we know that the school was haunted and we were stepping into a trap. When we walked into the old gym I saw a note. I picked it up. It read, "Nichole and Josh, leave immediately or we’ll kill you, oh wait we already are going to kill you, you can’t stop us hahahahaha." Then, right as I read the last part, we heard, "hahahahaha", but in an evil,creepy way. "Who goes there," Josh asked bravely. No one replied. "Josh, honey, I think we better leave. I’m scared. I don’t wanna die." I said frightened. "Yeah, me neither, let’s get outta here and back to the camp house." Josh said quite calmly. As we walked hand in hand back to the camp house, a truck going at least 100mph came towards us. I screamed, frozen to the ground, like something was holding me there. "move honey" Josh screamed. "I can’t" as I jerked forward showing him that I can’t. He ran and pushed me outta the way. "Thanks" I told him. When we got back to the house we all got dressed up to go to dinner. Before we left I told Josh, "I think we need to break up, if it’s the fact that we’re together that’s gonna kill us, then lets end it. I don’t want to die because I’m in love with the most amazing ..:namespace prefix = st1 ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:smarttags" />guy." That night I caught up with some friends at the restaurant that my other friends and Josh were going to. When I got to the beach bar I saw another note. It read, "If you think that breaking up won’t have us kill you, think again" I went down to the table that Josh was sitting at, while he was in the bathroom. "Tell me when Josh is on his way back, Casey" I told Casey, my best friend’s 11 year old sister. "He’s coming Nikki" Casey told me loudly. "Thanks Case." I replied nervously. At that moment Josh came around the corner. "Hi, Nichole what’s wrong?" Josh asked curiously. "I think you better read this. I found it at the beach bar." I told him. Once he finished reading it, he asked me, "is this the real reason you came down here?" "Yes, and no. if we’re gonna get killed no matter what, then I’ll rather die with you in my arms, then without you. I wanna be with you until, no, even when I die. I love you Josh so much." I replied crying. Josh gave me a hug as he said, "I love you too and I never want to let go of you. If we die it should be together." We looked into each other’s eyes. I could tell he was thinking the same thing as me, we have to go back to the school. As we walked to the school I couldn’t help but notice something in Josh’s jacket pocket. "What’s in your jacket Joshikins" I asked. Oh, well I was going to give it to you earlier but you know." Josh pulled out a diamond engagement ring, and got down on one knee, and asked me, "Will you merry me?" "Of course I said "yes." When we got to the gym, I saw yet another note. It read: awwww engaged the two of you make me sick. "Whose here? What do want from us?" josh yelled. The note changed it then read: we are Katie and Tom and we want you DEAD!!!!!. "Josh help me" I screamed as the floor beneath me gave in. "I got you don’t let go." Josh said, "Give me your other hand" as I gave him my other hand, the ground beneath him caved in. We both fell together, hand in hand screaming. "Don’t ever let go Josh." I told him. Moments passed we finished falling. We were in some time of lab. We started to look around. These things came flying outta no where. "What was that?" Josh asked rhetorically. These alien looking things came out of the UFOs. "Why won’t you guys die?" the creature asked. Thinking that I knew the answer I replied," because our love is too strong for death. You can’t kill us we’re then invincible couple" I probably said that because the invincible couple was said to never die even when someone wants them dead. "We know that you are the invincible couple. That’s why we wanted you dead." The creature replied. "How did you know that?" Josh asked confused. "Put the pieces together. we love each other so much that we’d die for each other. We would break up so we couldn’t die. They where testing us Josh. We can’t be beaten," I told feeling very smart. "The little girl has it right little boy, but there’s one thing worst then never dying and that is hatred!!!" the creature said weirdly." hatred always kills love." "Oh really then watch this." Josh said strongly. "Kiss me"at first i hesitated but then realized this is the only way to kill these things, so I did. The creatures started to scream,it was so loud i almoat fainted but i turned to Josh and said,"we should keep going if we make out maybe they'll die!" so we started to make-out. Soon after five minutes or so of making out, the creatures were screaming a very high pitched tone and exploded.They where dead and the invincible couple felt closer then ever. we soon got married on Valentines Day, the day of love, on the beach in california, and now we have three beautiful children who are also invincible, and the invincible couple never ever died,even through old age. They stayed together no matter what, even when the next set of creatures came to destroy them..... 

Natalie's Story. {NOT A REAL STORY!!!!!!! IT'S JUST A STORY}

My Journal

Date: 4/5/2012

Well I guess I can start off by stating my name. My name is Natalie, but everyone calls me Nat. I am 18 years old and I am from a small town in upstate New York, in the foothills of the Catskill Mountains. My thereapist told me to write this journal, about what had happened my Junior year in high school. I am now a Senior. Even though I am the most popular girl at my school, I still have my problems. I was known as the girl who would cheat on guys because I didn't really notice their emotions. I guess this is where the story starts.

The beginning of my Junior year, I was dating the most popular guy at my school, Thomason. He was probably he worst guy for me to date. He was abusive and didn't seem to care about me. I love kissing guys, it's like a drug to me. I was making out with the coolest guy ever, Jake, who is a spittin image of Pierre Bouvier from Simple Plan. All of a sudden my bedroom door slammed open. It was Thomason and he looked pissed. "Wanna join us?" I said playfully. "You don't mean anything to me anymore! all you do is cheat! you seriously need to grow up, Nat! you're not the American Jesus you know! I hope you crash and burn because you suck at love!" Thomason yelled at me. "Well damnit Thomason! Nobody is perfect! Well, hah, Simple Plan is, but other than them, no one is!" As I said that to him, he just turned and walked away. At that moment I felt like I was the loser of the year. I felt bad that Jake had to see that because I really like him. I just prayed that he would stay with me, I was addicted to him.

"You know Jake, I'm just a kid and I make mistakes. But, when I'm with you I feel like one day we could have our summer paradise." I told him, honestly. "Nat, darling, you have to promise me that when you take my hand, even though right now your love is a lie, one by one your love will turn around proving that I did save you." "Yes, Jake, I promise. I'd do anything, anything to meet you there; at your level of love." Jake just stared at me and laughed, "Shut up and kiss me Nat." That was the day my life changed. 

The next day Jake and I were cuddling and he randomly said, "I can't keep my hands off you, this is truely a perfect world." I had to admit he was right. All I could think in my head at that moment was, "welcome to my life." I smiled at him finally knowing I had something good in my life and that I must be crazy to actually be falling in love with him. Over the next few weeks, Jake and I were always together. Everyone even voted us the cutest couple for the yearbook. Then, something amazing had happened to me.

"Jake! I got the part in the movie, My Alien, that I auditioned for! I'm playing the sexy alien and Sebby Fresh is playing the astronaut!" "Oh my God babe! Congrats!" "Yeah, but that means I'm going to be away from you. Haha I have an idea! When I'm gone, everytime someone says my name, can you jump for joy for me, please?" Jake laughed at that idea. "Why would one jump for joy when I won't be there next to you? "Because, then you can think of me and it'll cheer you up." He shrugged and nodded. We then kissed, hugged and cuddled. "Hey, Jake, what if I become famous for nothing?" "Darling, as long as you think about me, nothing you do is for nothing." 

That following weekend I was packing and talking to me best friend Zoe, who was helping me pack. "Hey, um, Nat, what's on your mind? You just got really quiet." "Zoe, do you think that our generation is running out of time to find and fall in love?" "No way! I think we have plenty of time. Are you scared that Jake might find someone else?" "No, I'm afraid that I will." "Nat, don't surrender to your urges. I read this book called, 'Untitled: Life Of A Teenage Girl' and it says that it's better to have one guy to love then have no love at all." "That's genius!" "Well Nat, I am really smart." Then we laughed and finished packing up my stuff.

Bright and early that Monday morning Jake drove me to the airport. "Jake, even though it's only November, I wanted to tell you that you are the only thing on my Christmas list and I love you with all my heart." "I love you too Natalie. I can wait forever for you. Whenever you see a shooting star think of me and you will know everything is ok." "I guess it's time to say goodbye." "Not goodbye but see ya later." "See ya later Jake" I hugged him and I knew it was real. I started to cry; I didn't want to leave my true love behind. That was the last time that I saw him alive.

Coming from New York I didn't get the hang of LA time for awhile. The jet lag lasted for months, actually. On set, I had to do school work so I wouldn't get behind. I really wanted to be anywhere else but here. Like, with Jake and my family. Being in a move with Sebby made things a little bit easier. He always sung me Simple Plan songs. It was really sweet. But I knew we could only be friends because I was 100% in love with Jake.

The last day of filming was bittersweet. I loved filming but I missed home and Jake. I couldn't wait until I was in Jake's arms once again. After we finished, I took the first flight home, since I was already packed. When I landed, I got a phone call from Zoe, "Nat, there's been an accident. Jake he's..he's..." "He's what Zoe?!?!" I bursted into tears right then thinking the worst. I honestly didn't want to know but Zoe was freaking me out. "Nat, just get to the corner where our bus picked us up in middle school." "I'm just around the corner, be there in a sec." I saw the lights. I saw the crash. I saw them putting Jake's body in the body bag. That was when I lost it. Zoe saw me and ran over to me. "Zoe, God must hate me. Jake is the love of my life. Now he's gone too soon." I just sat there crying on my best friend's shoulder until she decided to drive me home.

At home, I couldn't take it anymore. It was me against the world. I thought that I was holding on but in truth, I wasn't. It had to end. I tried to tie the belt around my neck. As I was doing that, the song, 'Last One Standing' by Simple Plan, aka my favorite band, was playing on the radio. It reminded me that I have to stay strong and that I'm not alone. I called Zoe. "Zoe, I almost commited suicide. Can you spend the night? Please? This song saved my life. Like literally, today is the worst day ever."

Well, that was about a year ago. I haven't had a suicidal thought since. I feel happier today than I did  year ago. If I could tell Jake anything it would be this, "I never should have let you go and I don't wanna think about you being dead because it hurts. I will always love you. We were so happy together. Joy to the world that you are alive in my memory." I guess that is my story. The End.